Sock sorrow
I purchased sock yarn last week to make Mother's Day socks for the women in my family. I already have sock yarn and have started on the socks for Ben's mom. Her feet get hot so I went with the no-wool option of Panda Cotton. Bamboo, cotton and elastic. My mom's feet don't get so hot and she was intrigued by the yarn I was telling her about, so I purchased Seacoast Panda for hers. Bamboo and wool. My step-mother lives in Fairbanks and had pointed out to me that the weather being too hot to wear wool socks in the summer is a non-issue for her, so I purchased her Apple Laine yarn. Wool, mohair, silk and some nylon for durability. Lovely soft fluffy yarn.
Obviously, with how close it is to Mother's Day I wasn't going to finish all of these in time. That's okay. Ben's mom is here so I was doing her socks first. My mom fell and severely injured herself on a bird-watching trip in Florida about 6 weeks back and is still in a hospital down in Sarasota, unable to stand or touch her leg to the ground. Since the hospital is doing her laundry, handknit socks will wait until she returns, about the end of this month. My step-mother's birthday is in June so I figured on the socks being Mother's Day/birthday socks.
I just found out yesterday that my step-mother just went into a coma and is not expected to survive. Not knowing the expected time frame at the time, because there are the comas that can last for years, I started on her socks right away. I did not use the pattern I had originally planned because I was going for speed.
I spoke to my dad last night after he talked to the doctors about the results of her MRI. She will not regain consciousness. This is not a long-term situation. My dad told me that there wouldn't be time for me to complete the socks. Essentially, by the time I complete the socks it will be too late. And yet I feel that I have to make the socks because that is really I can do for her at this point.
So now I am torn about this. I pulled out what I had done in the non-pretty speedy pattern. Since there will not be time it didn't seem fair to her to make them in something sub-standard. Do I make memorial socks for myself? The yarn must be made into socks. It was purchased for her. And yet she will never wear them. Knowing or not.
I am aware that obsessing over the socks at a time like this is not normal. But this is where my brain is stuck.
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KD at 5/4/2007 11:41:00 AM- I agree about the memorial socks. I think that's a neat idea.
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Angie at 5/4/2007 11:50:55 AM- I really like the idea of memorial socks. Find a pattern that suits her personality, and make them for yourself.
This sounds stupid when I type it: Whenever I wear my red shoes, I try to do something nice for someone else. Perhaps you could do that with the socks!
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kat at 5/4/2007 2:28:25 PM- i like the memorial socks, too. but maybe they can also be something that you can give to becca when she gets older, so she can remember grandma.
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Jen at 5/4/2007 6:19:18 PM- Oh, I am so sorry. I also like the memorial socks with a really cool pattern.
Sorry about your sad news. Memorial socks? I like the concept. Make the socks for yourself and every time you wear them you will think about her.
Oh, and thanks for letting the internet know I get sweaty feet. :)