I am a bad mother.  Here I take Rebecca to the dr on Monday for her cold, the dr says she has fluid behind the right eardrum and we need to keep an eye on her in case it develops into an ear infection.  Yesterday she wouldn’t eat off the left boob.  It took me until 9 last night to realize that it was because it hurts her to lay on her right side with that.  If I weren’t so dense, I would have gotten her into the drs yesterday.  All last night she woke up every hour crying.  She goes in at 11:45 today.  Things like this really make me feel sorry for firstborn children.